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Hey again, haiz. today is the class outing and yesterday 60% I could not go, now its 90% I cant go. WTF. Why doesn’t my family understands who much my friends means to me. They have been with me through thick and thin together. When i need help, they would always be there for me. This is maybe the last class outing that we will ever have and she simply say no. Doesn’t she understand how I feel? She said no because she invited people to eat at our house. In the first place, why did you invite when I told you last 2 days that I’m going out? Trying to piss me off ? How do you feel when its your last time seeing your friends and your mother said no? Sad? Angry? Furious? Lots of stuff is going thru my head. Should i just go and don’t care my family? Or should i stay and get bored to death? FUCK this world. No one understand teenagers nowadays. I’m big now, I’m not a 6 year old kid like last time where you still have to wash my ass and feed me. I’m 17. Old and know whats good or bad. Mummy, try to be in my shoes, will you be sad if your mom said no? I wanted to tell the girl I like that I like her but it looks like I can’t. I really wanna go. I want to see everyone for one last time. Shamsul is leaving and i can’t see him anymore. Now its the class. Fuck, why no one understand? My family says I’m getting rebellious. I said, “I’m the same me. Its just because you think that I’m in ITE I’m rebellious now.” Just going out with my friends is rebellious? Atleast I don’t come home at 1-2am. I come home around 10-11pm. Is it that bad? Hope you understand me mom.
P.S: Can’t wait to see you ( if I’m going ).
